God does not change, and that is such a comfort to me in times of change and transition in my life. He’s called The Rock for a reason!
James 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.
I’m also having a lot of conviction lately about learning to be truly humble. It seems it’s hard for my habits to get in line with my mental grasp of this being what God wants me to be. It’s hard to change the way you think and feel sometimes and to not put stock in what others think of you, or to remind yourself that the bad things they think of you are often true, and justification of self in this world is just not possible, except through Jesus’ sacrifice. We can stand on our pride all we like and say “I’m a good person! I tried so hard! I did my best!” but the truth is we all fail, we all falter, we all fall short, and we all do bad, ungrateful, mean spirited, unkind things even if we truly don’t intend to. And so, I am learning (slowly and often painfully) to remind myself that God wants us to lean on His love, to wrap ourselves in who He says we are, and to be humble with others. God is teaching me that I need to stop trying to justify myself to the world, and to live with a humble outlook, seeing what I can do to serve them in His name, rather than what can be done for me or what someone might think of me because of our interaction. Here’s some verses I’m studying about that as well.
2 Corinthians 11:30 “If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness.”
Ephesians 4:2 “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.”
Philippians 2:3 “Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.”
1 Peter 5:5b “All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because ‘God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.’ ”
Lord, Help me to boast on the things that show my weakness, because I know in my weakest moments, Your Grace and Glory shine through. Your perfection lifts me up at every fall, You step in last minute and save me at every desperate moment when I feel I’m careening back into trouble because of my bad habits or poor stewardship, and I am so unworthy. I am so un-endingly thankful, Lord, that You would stoop to do so much for me and my family. We see Your hand in every small moment of our lives, Lord. When You wake us each morning with the sun and show us Your love with every person You put in our lives who supports us, helps us, and loves us. You, Lord, shine through them and I pray You shine through me as well. Take me, Lord, make me truly Your vessel. Help me to forget my sense of “self” and remember only to turn to You. Remind me I don’t need to justify my actions, Lord, to make myself feel all right. I know I shouldn’t do these things, and I know that studying You and Your Word helps me do less and less wrong, but in the times I do fail, Lord, remind me that I am saved by Grace and not my own wits. Lord, Father, I am so very grateful for that. I am grateful to not need a quick wit or a slick tongue to cover up my misdeeds and pray no one sees the things I don’t do right. Let them see, Lord! Let them all see how frail and human and stupid and foolish I so often am, for they will see in that how often You are lifting me, saving me, rescuing me, and protecting me. Let them see only Your strength in my weakness, Your glory in my failure, Your Grace in my faux pas. There are not enough words to praise Your helping, healing, protecting hands, Lord, but I will say again I am so grateful. I love Your discipline, Lord, teaching me to be more like Your Son, teaching me to allow Your Spirit to shine through. Thank You So Much for letting me be a reflection of You, through my imperfection. When everything seems uncertain, because all around me is changing, I thank You that You are the rock I can build my house on. You, Lord, are unchanging perfection in the constant flux and turmoil of our human lives, and there is nothing more reassuring.
In Jesus’ Name, Amen.