I was reading an article from Andrew Wommack tonight and in a long twisting strand of a web of synchronistic happenings in my life lately, it landed squarely on my heart. I feel so much like I’m seeking and seeking and nearly finding just exactly what I’m looking for. And that is, I believe, how a Christian is supposed to live her entire life. It isn’t that we ever are complete or finished here in our earthly lives, it is that God means us to be eternal seekers.
New Living Translation
“Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7
Will you pray with me?
I am seeking for You in my life, in every second and moment of it, in every corner and hidden place. I find You and Your Grace and Your fulfilled promises everywhere I look, now that my eyes are open and I am so grateful, Lord. Every day, Lord, I find some new piece of me or my life that I am still not turning over to You, though, God. I see that I am letting worldly expectations and ideas of shame and judgment get in the way of a meaningful relationship with You, Lord, and as I turn each of these hidden parts of me over to You, I experience Your true healing, love, and Grace. I know I can not hide from You. I know You have seen all of my life before You even created it, and I seek today to ask You to remind me to trust You in all things. I am so humbled by that, Lord. We can get so used to keeping pieces of ourselves from people for fear of their reactions, Lord, and I am overjoyed to remember that we need not, even can not, hide from You. Lord, release me, all of me to Your way. I give you all of me, again today, Lord. I pray You forgive me for laying worries at Your feet and then picking them back up, for hiding from You as if You were a mere human parent, and for forgetting to trust in Your love for Your children. Lord, mostly, I ask You to keep showing me how to expect the best from life because I am Your child, how to be content in every situation, yet to keep seeking and asking for more, because You have given us Your Spirit and it has already conquered all.
In grateful supplication, by His Stripes, Amen.
Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die.(NIV)
Lord, We can never find words to thank You for the ultimate sacrifice You gave. You sent Your son to die for us, and on this day He was risen and showed to the world that You kept Your promise and that You walked this earth with us for awhile, in the form of Your son, then You felt him suffer more torture and pain, not just physical and mental, but all the spiritual pain that we had brought on ourselves for all of the generations of this earth. He took it all, Lord, and wore our stripes. And now we can never be punished for them, so long as we have died to sin and been reborn in You. All men must die, but You arranged it so that we could die while still living our earthly lives so that when our bodies expire, we are merely moving on to our eternal life with You. How could we ever praise You enough, Lord, for something so great it is entirely beyond our comprehension? We praise Your Holy Name, Lord, again and again, because be it only a pittance in return for all Your love, it is all we have.
Praise Him, Praise Him, Praise Him! Alleluia, Amen!
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV) But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
1 Corinthians 10:13 (ESV) No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
God, Our Lord, we know that you have said that Your Grace is sufficient. We know You have said we can trust in You when we are tempted, and that You will not give us temptation without giving us also, the way out through You. We pray today that You will show us that way. We are tempted, Lord, so often and so fully. We find ourselves wanting to face each day’s stresses and we forget to even look to You. But we do it now, Lord, we turn to You and we ask that You pour that Grace on us, Lord. We ask that You use our weakness as Your vessel and fill it with Your Grace, so that we may escape these overwhelming situations. Lord, we are so glad we can trust in You. We are so happy You are our Abba, Father, and that You are sufficient, always holding out Your glorious hand to help us from each situation. You may give us more than we can feel we can handle, but we can trust that You have also supplied us the tools to handle it, if we turn to You, as You have promised us. And so, we turn to You, Lord, and we know You rescue us, each time. By Jesus’ Stripes, We are saved. Amen.
English Standard Version (ESV)
24 This is the day that the Lord has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need.
Hebrews 13:5 ESV
Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
1 Timothy 6:6-11 ESV
Now there is great gain in godliness with contentment, for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.
Psalm 37:3-5 ESV
Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act.
Proverbs 28:25 ESV
A greedy man stirs up strife, but the one who trusts in the Lord will be enriched.
Also that everyone should eat and drink and take pleasure in all his toil—this is God’s gift to man.
Lord, today we come to you knowing that we are not often content in the low times as we are in the high. We seek your forgiveness for not appreciating the season, Lord. We ask that You teach us to look to the lesson and the reason that we are in these hard times, even if we can’t comprehend those reasons. You have pledged You will take care of all of our needs, and our responsibility in kind is to have Faith that in every season, in every time of our lives, You are in charge and moving us forward toward the dreams You’ve placed in our hearts and the service You’ve called us to complete. We are so grateful that we can believe in this and take it with us in our hearts through the rough moments of life, when we feel trod upon and upset. Remind us, Lord, to take in the kernels of wonderment and the reminders of Your Grace in each day, because each day is of Your making. We will rest, and be content in the day The Lord has made, and we will fall back on Faith when the troubles of life threaten to overwhelm, because You have promised that we can.
In Jesus’ Name, AmenP
Ezekiel 18:20 ESV
The soul who sins shall die. The son shall not suffer for the iniquity of the father, nor the father suffer for the iniquity of the son. The righteousness of the righteous shall be upon himself, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon himself.
John 8:36 - If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.
1 John 4:18 - There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
2 Timothy 1:7 ESV
For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.
I have been letting an epic battle rage within my heart for actual years now. It’s staged between fear, guilt, and the urge to be free. And I realized just today, that maybe Idolatry is also featuring there. You see, I have long let myself, in a deep dark box I keep locked away in my heart, believe that if I was a Good Daughter, in fact a Perfect Daughter who did everything she could to improve her mother’s life, then I would somehow be worthy and worthwhile and happy and everyone around me would be happy and things would be… well, perfect.
Blasphemy to a high degree, all that. And I let it poison a lot of my time here on earth. It is a deep rooted seed now, and hard to work out of myself. But I’m trying so very hard. Because I know, by the Spirit which is within me, that it is completely wrong. Not only that, but it’s a hurtful ideal. It is hurtful to me, to my soul and my body, and it is harmful to those around me because my singular focus on the idol of this idea of myself as a perfect person has defined (in often harmful ways) my relationships, my daily life, and my attitude.
I am often angry and frustrated and I realized just lately that it is mostly because I often feel I need help with things and I never ask for it. I never ask because in my mind, the perfect person I long to be wouldn’t need help. This person I pretend to be, who is somehow ruining my earthly life, is also a major stumbling block on my walk with God. She interferes because I accidentally worship her. I put her and the trying to be her in front of everything. I look to this false person, who will never exist, as a savior, when I already know who the true Savior is.
This is a reason I may need to be making some big changes in my life as I move forward on my path with God, and I am afraid of it. The fear is in me as deep as the evil roots of this idea, and I am conquering it over and over again each day. I can not bow to the fear that changes will cause sorrow or hurt, because changes led by God are all I’m allowing in my life these days. I pray on everything and He leads me in every way. I’m not saying all my decisions will be right because of that, but I’m saying I trust now, that God will save me from my own stupidity and ridiculousness and that He will do as He has promised and set me free.
I am praying on all of this tonight, and you certainly can pray with me if you’re feeling trapped by fear or guilt. Our Lord does not want us to suffer under these misconceptions. He’s already made us free! Will you accept it with me tonight?
Savior, I accept that You have called me, as Your born again daughter, to be free. I gratefully accept the gift of this freedom, and I ask that You show me the way to bring this out in myself, the ability to be free from guilt and fear, especially as motives. I ask it not only for myself, Lord, though I do so long for that freedom, but so that I may better serve Your purposes. I am trying to see my calling from You, Lord, and to serve Your will on this earth, and what keeps finding me instead is this large road block of guilt, and fear, and idolatry. And I confess, Lord, I let it go on, I didn’t see it, and I am suffering for it when it is my own mistake. But, Lord, I know You and Your Grace are sufficient to forgive that, and I am so happy to gratefully take on that forgiveness. I know that from this moment forward, when I feel guilty, I can pray. When I feel fear, I can pray. When I see myself worshipping a perfect ideal instead of You, a Perfect God, I can pray. And I know that from the moment I pray, You will free me from all of that. I am so grateful that You will, Lord, and I look forward to doing Your will on this earth, however I may serve it. I know that You have freed me from the responsibility I feel to take care of others more than I should, Lord, because that is Your job. I am so happy that you have freed me from the guilt I have that I am not a perfect person, because I know I am a person who can do Your service, Lord, and that is all that is needed. I thank You that You have given me the self control to overcome these things, and to begin a new day tomorrow, in complete and true freedom! In Jesus’ Sweet And Holy Name, Amen.
English Standard Version (ESV)
17 as it is written, “I have made you the father of many nations”—in the presence of the God in whom he believed, who gives life to the dead and calls into existence the things that do not exist.
We know You say that we can, through the Spirit, access the power of spoken word against those who would harm us. I know the power Your word holds and that You have given us the ability to speak directly to our problems and I have seen that work in my own life. I am so intensely pleased by these systems you’ve put into our lives to help us have closer relationships with You and to have an easier time here on earth while we seek You and find Your intention and calling for our lives. I know You have the power to call into existence that which doesn’t yet exist, how then could I not believe that You could do anything I needed to provide for me and my family, as Your Word assures me you will? I believe in Your Providence, Lord!I am delighted and forever indebted to You for Your Grace and favor in my life and I humbly Praise Your name, Lord. I Praise You, I love You, I adore You, and once again, I Thank You.
In Jesus’ Name, Amen